Post by Felicity Banks on May 17, 2018 3:58:29 GMT
I have a good imagination, and (depending on the day) reasonable empathy. Both important writerly qualities.
So that's why I had gay dreams for YEARS without thinking anything of it. I've felt for a long time that Christians (I am a Christian) don't treat gay people well, and that bothered me even back in the days that I believed that there was no such thing as a godly gay marriage. (For the record, I am now passionately pro gay marriage.) So I figured my concern for LGBTIQA+ people was the reason I had the dreams. The sexy gay dreams.
I also REALLY liked the movie "Splash", and thought the innocent nudity of Daryl Hannah's character was one of the purest things I'd ever seen (and not just because I was a child when I first saw it). In fact there's a scene in "Heart of Brass" that tries to capture that nonchalant gorgeousness. It makes me think of Eve, in the Garden of Eden, before shame was invented.
One day, happily married to a man and the mother of two children (and with "Heart of Brass" in the publication pipeline), I was on my computer and I saw this picture:
And that, dear reader, is when I realised I was attracted to women.